So I'm starting to get pretty committed to the idea of not working for a while post-Allurent. Or, at least, not working more than a few days a week. It's just time; I'm a little scared and a lot excited.
The past few years I've been learning - or trying to learn - all this stuff about music, and I feel like I've hardly had a proper moment to really get it right. The part that kills me is that I can tell that when I do spend time with it, I learn things quite fast. Like... leaps and bounds faster than the rest of the time. But I just don't get to it, or I'm too tired, or whatever. That really sucks.
Will this change with more free time? I hope so. I'm kinda under the assumption that I've been putting a lot of my mental capacity into my job. It certainly seems plausible - I spend my most productive waking hours sitting in that office every day. What if I had those hours to myself? That's what I need to find out.
So I have no idea what'll happen when I'm suddenly not working. Will I last, or I will I drive myself insane not having a place to go every day? Will I keep it up for three months and then decide that I've had enough, and go back and get a job? Will I last six months? Will I last a year? I will be eating through my savings by doing this. If I go six months and then contract for six months, I think that is a sustainable model.
Maybe a few months is all I need. I have no idea! But I'm going to fucking find out, bitches!
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